I've loved Tori Amos since hearing her first album. There is just something about her thats... different. She is very intense, very pure, very real. Her first stuff was very hurt, very not angry or angsty like Alanis Morrisette, but... wounded. It bit deep with me. Later, she spread out, became more childlike, happier, more full of wonderment. Then she spread further, became experimental, playing, exploring. I kind of lost her at that point, it became a little too over the place for me, jarring kind of. Whilst I may have lost the albums then, I never stopped adoring her.
I saw her once before, in London in a small intimate theatre and I fell in love. It was her and about 4 keyboards. Nothing else. No one else. She sat on her stool. Talked about her life, about growing up with this big smile and open trusting eyes. Spoke to us like old friends, then launched into a few songs. It was the most amazing thing I had ever seen. I'll never forget it.
This time I was a little nervous. I knew I hadn't liked a lot of stuff she had done recently, the leaping around, the change of styles jarred with me. I was a little nervous I would feel alienated because of that.
I neednt have worried though. This time she spoke briefly at the beginning to welcome everyone to her patch and hope they enjoyed it like being in her local listening to the piano bar. Her, a drumer and a guitarist.
She is still stunningly beautiful, at 46. She was wearing a black dress, open from the waist down with long tail at the back - showing her perfect legs, glad in shiny white leggings. Her high heels. Her hair is perfectly straight now, still luscious red. She span on stage like a fairy. Little dancing movements with her hands which made little sense but just fitted in with her geekery, her enjoyment of what was going on, her not caring about how it looked or how she should be but just part of how she was.
She opened her world to us, through her music. A glimpse into Tori's music, her life.
She sang for over 1hr 45mins without stopping for a pause or even a glass of water. She sang with sweeping songs all over her range, which is huge. Her voice is an instrument and she used it to its utmost. Her voice is so pure, its so clean, its so precise you don't need to hear the words. It is music in itself.
Some songs I didn't like so much and it didn't matter. Sitting watching her, watching her live those songs it didn't matter what they sounded like. It was experiencing her, her love for them, her love for the music. Getting lost in that with her, not caring where it went.
I know I was entranced.
She is a virtuoso pianist of such passion. She had (to start with) her grand piano with keyboard atop it. Behind her back, two other keboards stacked on atop the other. Sitting on one corner of the piano bench, one bum cheek just barely resting on it, one leg forward, the other stretched straight back, like a runner about to sprint. Trademark Tori. Uncaring of style, just her place. Sometimes sitting astride it, spread legged, not caring of the view she was giving... Sometimes arching up and humping the air, probably very deliberately aware of the view she was giving.
Some songs she just played the grand. Some she played two. One song she played all four. Sitting, facing the audience, not looking at either set of keyboards. One hand on each, at right angles to her. Playing each as it had the sound she needed. A microphone above each so she could sing wherever she faced.
Some people that would be pretentious, look at me, look how clever I am. Look what I can do. Some people the changes in style, the clashing, the jarring would be "artistic". Not to Tori though, I don't think. To her, thats just how it sounds in her head, so its the way it is. Find a way to play it.
Some artists change clothes in a concert. No, she had her keyboards changed, to a different three. Always the grand piano though.
I cried at "Winter". That line "When you gonna love you as much as I do" always gets to me.
Precious Things... Another song from 1992. Wow.. so long ago, yet still so powerful. Precious Things gave me the chills. That piano drove through you, every line was ice, ice that came from the pain long ago. I was impressed after so much time, after so much happiness she could play it with such venom.
Every line a chill down my spine. Yet... her versatility that she could leap from something like that to a Jazz number, a rockier number, a ballad quiet and still, a leaping dancier number, a gentle piano piece, a concotion. No jarring, no pause, just leap.
Her body throwing itself into every piece. Loving every minute.
I've just been re-reading the Magic Kingdom of Landover books and in them there is the description of a character who is eternally wanting but unfulfilled because of his lust for the wildness of the wood nymph he had one night but who could never stay with him. He could just watch her dancing, wildly, to her own tune in the woods but could never be tamed or captured. Thats how it feels to watch Tori. Watching her dance her dance thats just her own on stage with her keyboards, her songs, her voice. Watching some ethemeral spirit on a moonlit night that you've just happened upon in a woodland glade. Don't make too much noise or she will be gone. Don't try and capture it, its like bottling mist. Just be entranced and go away feeling you've seen something very very magical.
I'd go again in a heartbeat..
More mundately, the audience was weird. It wasn't a cheap concert and yet people came in 25mins after she started, missing the support completely and the first part of her set. I have never seen a more restless crowd getting upto go to the bathroom or get drinks. In and out all the time... yet they were loving her, not bored.... There was even a fight....
The support act "One eskimO" were great and totally worth looking out for. The lead singer is "Kristian Leontiou" who had a big hit in 2004 with the lovely song "Story of my life". It was an amazing song but things didnt go the way he wanted so he stepped back and found where he wanted to go, and they are just ready to come to prominance again. They should do, they have a great great sound.